You’re right. I think I somehow needed to get this off my chest and get someone else’s opinion on this to convince me that I’m not a bad person and that I’m allowed to forget this because it’s hard to carry this alone with me everyday. I hope I manage to move on/get over this and forget this cause I’m very paranoid about these things and generally have strong shame if anyone criticizes me about the smallest thing and thinks something bad about me that I’m not. And that was basically the worst accusation I could possibly get especially if it’s from children (even though I’m not sure how old they actually were cause their way of articulating things and insulting me made me feel like they were at least 15 or something. I think someone said he was 16 or so)
Yea I definitely have that. It goes to the point where I’m checking my door multiple times in a row and when something bad happened I can’t stop thinking about it. Thanks for the tip, I will definitely talk with my psychiatrist about it!